artpixie: wingsofadove: It’s been such a long day. I definitely failed my psych final because I was focusing the most on math. Even if I had studied, it still would have been the hardest test I’ve ever taken in my entire life. Everyone agreed that it was impossible. My computer charger has been weird lately. It only charges when it wants to. I wish I felt the Christmas spirit more than I do right about now. Lately, I feel like I’ve been pretending. I promised you I’d keep the spirit alive. I’m trying, I really am. My best friend is coming over tomorrow night to help me decorate. Maybe if we hang some ornaments, blast Christmas music, and light some scented Christmas Cookie candles, it’ll start feeling more like that time of year. I feel like I’m stuck in-between reality and the norm. I want things to feel normal so I’m trying to repress everything that’s actually going on so maybe I can get adjusted a little faster and easier. I know I just have to let things fall into place, but it’s so hard just sitting back and watching my world drastically change when all I want to do is fast forward and get it over with. Maybe it wouldn’t hurt as much.Right now, it’s difficult not letting you drain every ounce of happiness I still have left. Then again, I still have the same dreams I’ve always had and I refuse to let you stand in the way of allowing me to achieve them. Hopefully by this time next month, you’ll be gone and I can start my new life without you. I need to realize that I’ll be just fine. Not everyone needs their mom by their side, right? “WHY DON`T PEOPLE JUST LIVE THERE OWN LIVES ,WITHOUT DESTROYING OTHERS,TOTAL BULLSHIT ,GET ON WITH YOUR LIVES„ENJOY IT WHILE YOU R STILL LIVING” First of all, nice grammar, asshole. I never knew that commas are suddenly the same thing as periods now. Stop speaking in all caps, too. You of all people are no better than anyone else. I don’t expect perfection but I do expect maturity, especially from someone who is much older than I am. Oh and by the way, “why don’t people just live their own lives without destroying others?” Are you out of your goddamn fucking mind? You are the definition of a home-wrecker and you have destroyed more lives than one which doesn’t give you any right to go around accusing my dad and I of destroying your life with my mom. God, you’re both worthless pieces of shit. They say that “hate” is a strong word. It doesn’t even make a dent in the way I feel towards you. People like you shouldn’t be living. That’s all there is to it.

Dec 16 -

artpixie:

wingsofadove:

It’s been such a long day.

I definitely failed my psych final because I was focusing the most on math. Even if I had studied, it still would have been the hardest test I’ve ever taken in my entire life. Everyone agreed that it was impossible.

My computer charger has been weird lately. It only charges when it wants to.

I wish I felt the Christmas spirit more than I do right about now. Lately, I feel like I’ve been pretending. I promised you I’d keep the spirit alive. I’m trying, I really am.

My best friend is coming over tomorrow night to help me decorate. Maybe if we hang some ornaments, blast Christmas music, and light some scented Christmas Cookie candles, it’ll start feeling more like that time of year.

I feel like I’m stuck in-between reality and the norm. I want things to feel normal so I’m trying to repress everything that’s actually going on so maybe I can get adjusted a little faster and easier. I know I just have to let things fall into place, but it’s so hard just sitting back and watching my world drastically change when all I want to do is fast forward and get it over with. Maybe it wouldn’t hurt as much.Right now, it’s difficult not letting you drain every ounce of happiness I still have left. Then again, I still have the same dreams I’ve always had and I refuse to let you stand in the way of allowing me to achieve them.

Hopefully by this time next month, you’ll be gone and I can start my new life without you. I need to realize that I’ll be just fine. Not everyone needs their mom by their side, right?

“WHY DON`T PEOPLE JUST LIVE THERE OWN LIVES ,WITHOUT DESTROYING OTHERS,TOTAL BULLSHIT ,GET ON WITH YOUR LIVES„ENJOY IT WHILE YOU R STILL LIVING”

First of all, nice grammar, asshole. I never knew that commas are suddenly the same thing as periods now. Stop speaking in all caps, too. You of all people are no better than anyone else. I don’t expect perfection but I do expect maturity, especially from someone who is much older than I am. Oh and by the way, “why don’t people just live their own lives without destroying others?” Are you out of your goddamn fucking mind? You are the definition of a home-wrecker and you have destroyed more lives than one which doesn’t give you any right to go around accusing my dad and I of destroying your life with my mom. God, you’re both worthless pieces of shit. They say that “hate” is a strong word. It doesn’t even make a dent in the way I feel towards you. People like you shouldn’t be living. That’s all there is to it.